sometimes you have to find your way out of darness, and when the light of the universe reveals itself in yourself, and your light runs towards the larger, brighter, warm, welcoming light... things start to transform into life...
earliest work that survives.... this is one of those stories that stands alone... no need to show where it was coming from, and where it was going... it captures a moment in time, a transition, the victory of finding light in all the darkness... the joy of being the light that reaches towards the larger light at the end of this vortex that's pulling you toward the entire light in the universe...
this is a series that came together from color and feeling and the unshakeable imprint of real physical places left in me...
all of those places and moments in time that demanded to be acknowledged, immortalized, and shown, collapsed and started pouring out of me on canvas after canvas...
these are journeys on this plane of existance... maybe you've been... maybe you recognize them...
they're here. they want to be seen... they want you to feel... to let go... to dive into the experience of being alive
smaller than a lot of other of my paintings, this one was a short lived detour...
i loved it, memories of long gone winters in the countryside, getting lost in the colors of winter, freezing streams, de-leafed, spindly trees not holding up the incessant frigid winter winds...
this was not to be my path,,,
after the "Sunset over the plains, 2011" painting above, in the "places" serie, i thought that i could continue and maybe even enjoy that more realistic feel...
....alas...
....it didn't carry the emotional journey the creative part that's pushing through me from the source needed... so... short lived, alternate universe begining... who knows?
this one work in three panels manifested itself with an insatiable lust for seeing the outside world... it came through me, complete, in one hour... but it demanded all of my emotional presence and no emotional blockages... nothing was blocking the universe from comming through that day and delivering this.
more of a rothko exploration into the small, smaller, smallest details of life...
strange feelings emerged...
where damage, imperfections, inconsistencies appeared as unique value propositions! not liabilities....
these three canvases were tortured, banged up, dinged, some a bit warped.... but that is the whole point, isn't it?
we are all just a bit tortured, banged up, dinged... and each one of us is the full perfection of being...
it doesn't take much, but it demands all of that you are...
peace through the storm...
hope for the light in the darkness....
the answer to all... right there, in front of you...
waiting....
and it found me, in me, through me, through time...
peace... solace, light...
two as one, each its own thing, its own life, past, patterns,
with an alternate beginning covered up under many layers in another painting (check out "life")....
... with a definite middle, more chaotic, more layered, more terminal...
... with a clear end, a clear, and drastic end, and a vision of the where two will eventually evolve towards...
large scale... striking and vivid...
between surfing, crying my heart out, long night painting sessions with extremely loud edm music and a few cigars, i was painting to find my ground again...
these two paintings speak of that journey, from having my world torn apart in one moment, hitting the bottom, to not seeing the wall in front and then hitting it head on...
and through all that... finding solace in the tears as they were melting into the painting, into the ocean, washed away, again and again... coming out, again and again... from losing everything, then losing the capacity to move, then truly hitting a dark, lonely buttom that i never thought existed...
but the light of "the one" found a crack through my darkess and poured itself through...
and it is saving me every day...
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